Waiting for the bus - the bus that never comes
Waiting at the bus stop
patiently waiting
for the bus that never comes.
I think I see it in the distance
if I squint my eyes
and focus really hard
or if I close my eyes
and listen
closely
I hear a faint rumbling
I feel the energy of the bus
even though I can’t quite see it
or hear it
I believe the bus will come
I see it in my mind’s eye
How wonderful it will be
the flowers that adorn it
music trilling sweetly
the breeze carried with its movement
the love within it
I believe in the bus
It has to come -
It has to
even if I can’t see, hear or feel it
right?
If I wait patiently
and stay hopeful
It will surely come to me
It rains
and I wait
it’s dark
and I wait
through fog
and misty mornings
I wait.
Anger bubbles up.
You better get here bus!
I invested in you
I can’t walk away
Please come, dear bus. I need you to survive
Take me where I am going next
I’m too weak to travel
without you
Too scared to
navigate
solo.
I stamp my feet
Shout to the heavens
tears
hiccups
I rest on the earth
I weep
Tantrums
Longing
Bartering
Do not make it come.
I sit in the quiet
on the ground
on the hard pavement.
Depleted.
Empty.
a frog and I
gaze into each other’s eyes
Silent and still
My cat greets me
I look up
into his healing soulful eyes
Wiping my tears
I see yellow across the street
what is that?
a bicycle leaning against a tree
a shiny yellow bike with my name painted on the side
I look closer
a wicker basket
my cat joins my stride
to the bike
I place fresh meadow flowers in its basket
My cat jumps in and purrs, relaxing with lavender, goldenseal and mint
The sun peeks through clouds
shining a light
on the license plate
that reads
freedom
and I pedal
into a beautiful future
and never look back.